Book Title: Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
March 29, 2014
Part 1:
I
pity for Hannah Baker not because of committing suicide but tasting the
bitterness of betrayal from the people she trusted most. The recorded tapes
where just manifestation of the miserable life she experienced especially when
people around her started to deceive and overshadow with wrong speculations. They
earned her trust and ended up turning against her. I believe Hannah made the
recordings not to accuse but to show how these thirteen people in one way or
another, contributed to the burden she felt. Maybe, it was a wrong decision to
end up her life that way, she could have been stronger other than letting
herself affected with others’ attitude towards her.
Clay Jensen, though received the
recordings, obtained positive statements from Hannah. He played to be her one
and only hope. I owe him, because he know that somehow he failed to pull Hannah
from drowning on the ocean of hopelessness. He thought of loving Hannah back and
dreaming of having her back in his life.
I, once read an article says that
men are more likely to commit suicide because they keep their feelings just
within themselves unlike girls. Men have lesser outlet to dispense their
sentiments. I remember one of my favourite movie, Three Idiots. Joy Lobo is an
engineering student who committed suicide after knowing that he can’t graduate
just because of a nonsense reason. Ranchoddas said, “The post mortem reported
that the cause of death is the intense pressure in the windpipe resulting in
choking. All thought that the pressure on the jugular killed him, but what
about the mental pressure for the last four years? That’s missing in the
report... it isn’t suicide. It’s a murder!” I discern that suicide, in all
forms is caused by one factor and that is pressure. These people feel that no
one could pull them up and sees no hope. In Hannah’s case, it was the feeling
of isolation and rejection. That people around her introduce themselves as
friend yet stabs her at the back. In connection, I considered this story as a
great message to ponder that whenever I feel alone or out-of-the-way, or if
there’s no one can help to pull myself up, I always have my Lord to help and
strengthen me.
In all these things, I still speculate
why people like Clay Jensen, Alex Standall, Jessica Davis, Courtney Crimsen,
Bryce Walker and etc. unified to pull Hannah down. What is in her that other’s
find as intimidating? beauty? skills? Who knows? Hannah on her recording said
that if the one holding the tapes will not give it to the next person on the
list, another set of tapes will be produced. Does it signify that there’s
someone behind this? If yes, how is he/she related to Hannah and her death?
I think that some people mentioned
on Hannah’s suicide tapes will feel guilty on what they did to Hannah and some
others will continue to act the same way. It could be that Hannah’s loved ones
will seek retaliation on her suicide that ending up with these thirteen different
people grieve. (check the movie, Death Bell)
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